Just the life I live!

Wanna cry it out,
But I choke on tears;
As I get served demons;
As I live my fears!
& then I lie awake,

with a dream gone bad;

So I  heave a sigh,

and I pat my head.

It was a bad dream,

all blood & gore;

It made me pretty sick,

&my mouth went sour.

I feel great knowing,

for what it seems;

That the things I felt,

were just a dream.

& then I feel so cold,

let the truth be told;

I check and I find blood!

I look around, & find these scars;

As I see, I'm standing in the mud!

It dawns on me like a Dejà Vu;

These scars, this blood & pain;

I've seen this all, I realise;

O! my dream didn't go in vain!

So the horrors were real,

And it's now that I feel;

For all the love I give,

It wasn't a dream, no my friend;

It's just the life I live!