Vanity

Holding my hopes,
Yet slowly still;
I'm losing my sanity.
To my poorer self,
This entire life;
Feels like some vanity.

It's some vanity,

I can't afford;

For lack of so much gold.

I'd rather be left,

All wretched, yet free;

I'd love it, truth be told.

No love be less,

No hate too much;

Myself, I'd need to be.

& I'd float in air,

All lighter still;

Embrace the truth of "me".

And maybe someday,

Someone will come;

& make it all, rain again.

But I hope she stays,

& will just be mine;

It'd be worth, all this pain.

But not everyone,

Is here to stay;

Goodbyes, I'll learn to say.

Sure it hurts bad,

But time's not a friend;

Still have to move everyday.

I hope to learn,

To be by myself;

And learn to walk alone.

'Cz at the end of it,

I'm all I've with me;

yet so much is so unknown.

& So someday I hope,

To reach a deal;

& make the peace with life.

As it all goes dark,

And I lay still;

Some blessed end to strife.